And here we are - another 3 years later. Again, major life disruptions have happened since my dad passed in November 2022. In a span of one year my dad, a good family friend, and my husband all passed away. To say 2022 and 2023 were rough is an understatement.
But as all who are slapped with the death of a loved one no less multiple in one year, we move forward in whatever way we can. Four months after James died, I adopted a shelter almost old dog at 6/7ish years old, Redford! Yes, after Robert. I kept the name the shelter had given. Just over two years later, he responds to that name most of the time. Small victories. Originally told he was a shar-pei mix, a recent diagnostic test revealed is is much more and the shar-pei isn't even the dominant trai! In order of how much of a breed he is the following: american it bull terrier>chow chow>pug>beagle>shar-pei>german sheperd mix. Thank you Embark for figuring that out!
What else has happened? Not much - helped my mom downsize to a comfy duplex and somehow inherited alot of her stuff which I'm now sorting thru. My list of house project grew exponentially. I've lost about 50 lbs since James died (Sept 2023) without too much work so if I could just put some effort into that situation, I just might see some real progress. My job continues as before.
I don't know what else really. I've put myself back out there cause I'm lonely. I have a great group of friends but doesn't quite fill the gap left by James. So I dived back into dating, in an attempt to find my new person. Which I'll admit, these men - I measure up to James, which I suppose I shouldn't but he really was an amazing person and partner - green flag city. Unsurprisingly the dating scene is just as hard, annoying, and frustrating as it was before but it's also been an interesting and sometimes challenging experiment in managing expectations and personalities. Sigh....come on Fate - place that needle in the palm of my hand.
Til next time, hopefully not years later!
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