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My father's long and quick good bye

Oh my, I have gotten behind in my writing. Alas, I have a very good reason. Life....so much has happened in the last six months...well kinda sorta...

My father passed away in late November from complications suffered after a unfortunate fall. He suffered from late stage Parkinson's so perhaps it was a blessing in disguise. The last year of his life, he was probably giving us unconscious warning signs that all sense of his prior self was gone but we somewhat refused to see it. I am still grieving and I am sure I will for life but I find myself spontaneously crying upon some memory of him almost weekly. We will hold a celebration of life in June ... no idea how well any one of us will handle that. He was an amazing man, father and husband, friend to many. Obit https://www.hillsidefhcares.com/obituary/JohnD-Kirkman

My husband had surgery in November to place a PD catheter so he could do dialysis at home. Diagnosed with end stage kidney disease in April 2019, dialysis since Sept 2019 the last few years has been an education on the medical profession. I thought having my own host of various health issues, I knew a lot but apparently having chronic illness, being a caregiver, patient advocate, etc is a new ball game on health management, no less mental health mgmt. This newest chapter was to be a celebration of hope to some extent on renewing normal but new kind of life but instead its provided more questions and additional diagnosis to the growing list of issues my husband has. Frustrating for both of us, I try to keep my head up and try to stay positive and focused on the day and week's goal. Going out future is futile. I just don't have the mental capacity. 

Anyway, sorry for not keeping up on this. I should put this journey as a weekly task on my work reminder list. Perhaps I would do better with completing a session. A weekly "diary" entry. IDK

Meanwhile, my birthday was on the 19th and I am contemplating one of the three in celebration of it...or at least an excuse to do it....

1. Upgrade/change out to the newest apple watch

2. Get a third ear piercing

3. Get my first tattoo - Elfquest themed.

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